I think I’ve sat down to write about three or four times in the last couple of days, all different posts.
Lately I’ve been feeling angry and extra disgusted at a number of things. (Not that I’m lashing out at those around me or anything – I figure one of the signatures of being a grownup is being able to be upset without taking it out on unrelated people around you.) For a while I tried telling myself it was just hormonal, getting on and off the pill and so forth. But for the most part, I think it’s just the state of the world. Politics and news especially… yeah, those piss me off.
But there are worse things than being angry at world events. In recent months, weeks, days I’ve had some close friends and family go through some real bad times, with circumstances that were entirely out of their control and not their fault. Emotionally, it’s like a sock in the stomach every time you hear bad news. Everything is fine with me and my family personally, but when your loved ones suffer… well, I just wish I could do more.
I know that many bloggers have a “tell all” philosophy when it comes to their posts. However, I don’t. I’m not comfortable sharing dirty laundry, mine or my family’s (unless it’s really funny, of course), and I certainly wouldn’t blab the details of my friends’ lives. I think (and I know there will be those who disagree) you can publicly journal and still retain an element of privacy. But I also often feel my blog is pretty schizophrenic because of that – I post more about my state of mind or as an outlet for my
smartass creative side, and frankly there are days my state of mind changes from morning to night. (Doesn’t that happen with everyone? No?!) I’m sure some things seem like they come out of left field.
In any case, regardless of how hopping mad the news or stupid politics make me, sometimes it takes events closer to home to really put things in perspective. Sometimes you just have to hunker down and take care of those you love. And sometimes, even when things are crappy, you keep getting an odd sense that good happenings are just around the corner… for everyone.
I don’t know where it’s coming from but I’m starting to get that feeling. So, for what it’s worth, here is my wish for good tidings for you all.
– the weirdgirl